I really don't get what's happening! Does he love me? Player? Wtf I'm so confused!!!!! (open 4 more deets)?

His name is Dan. I honestly do love him so much. He's my ex. But I still have feeling for him. He said he still loves me to. Like he can be such a d*ck!!!!! But today, I just longed for him. I need him rigt now I miss him. He's like a drug, u just get so addicted! Today on the bus from school we were snuggled all up in my seat and we were really close. He had his head on my shoulder and my ead was on is head. He was hugging me around the waist and I felt so happy. But he an hurt me so much sometimes!!!!!!!!! Its hard to deal with him!!!! He kept kissing my hand lightly and asked if he could actually kiss me kiss me like lips and I said no. He's just like "aww ok" then we just talked about other things. I love being with him. I miss him so so so so so so sos soosososooooososososososos sooooooooooooooooooooooo much rigt now and its only been 6 and a half hours!!! Ugh god I don't know wht to do! I don't know if I should trust him! (Dave comment if u want and email me plz!!!!!) and everyone plz help me. He's hurt me so much b4 but I long for him and my heart, and me just need him! I don't know what to do!!!!!!! Help me plz plz plllzzzz!